Better late than Never

As Allendy explains:

"The femme fatale arouses men's passions, exasperates them, torments them, and they want to possess her, even to kill her, but they do not love her profoundly.

But you tell me profound loves do not satisfy you. You crave to give and to receive stronger sensations. I understand, but that is only a phase. You can play the game now and then, to heighten passion, but profound loves are the loves which suit your true self, and they alone will satisfy you.

You are still terribly afraid to be hurt... So afraid to be hurt that you want to take the lead and hurt first. "


If only I had an Allendy to psychoanalyse me back in the old days, and if only I had a proper brain to comprehend the core meanings of all the desires...

As Mum always says, better late than never!

尋: 他他她她的故事

突如其來的婆媽心血來潮，洗澡時想起舊有日誌，我稱它作<<他她她她的故事>> ，現在的我也有偶然拿起當故事看。打算在豆瓣搜尋同名散文小說集，犯著天大的癮要去讀那令人脹鼓鼓的 <<秋殘>>。Google 裡折騰一番後，失敗，我還以為網絡上是神通廣大的，愈是去想愈找不著，人也急起上來。我唯有再瞪眼睛仔細每頁看，終於我在第二頁搜索結果(看到自己個名)讀到這個:

.........(marjorie我很想找'秋殘'那本書重讀呀,那本書叫咩名?)....... 在雙宜的日誌上，原來她2007年5月巳要求我把秋殘找出來，當時我也沒讀到這呢!

這很可惜，這麼好的故事連作者是誰也找不著。主角好像是少爺仔鳳翔和日藉軍人耕陽，輕描淡寫數頁，大概是等等待待窩心到天光愛未老的故事迷惑了當時千真萬確少女的心。

(突然手寫板運作回歸正常!)